Syeda Sarfaraz Fatima Nashtar Khairabadi |
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Syed Zia Khairabadi's poem "Woh Nazren" dedicated to his mother Syeda Sarfaraz Fatima Nashtar Khairabadi
Shahzad Rizvi's short story "WE MEET AGAIN"
Monday, April 25, 2011
Dr Shahzad Rizvi: A great writer of East and West : by Dr Syeda Imrana Nashtar Khairabadi
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Dr Shahzad Rizvi on Muslim Saleem and revelation of his poetic art
Friday, April 22, 2011
‘Woman and Me’ by Dr Shahzad Rizvi
Her body touched the strings of my heart.
Her music created kaleidoscopic images.
I fell in step with her.
We traversed many a galaxy.
Then, all of a sudden,
She dissolved into light and engulfed me.
I was ecstatic.
The union gave me more than a million others might.
Now the essence of this woman
Is an integral part of me.
It gives me the fuel of life, hope, happiness.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Translation of the poem "jab ham ne zindagi ki gineen rahaten tamam" of Muslim Saleem by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
Years and years became concentrated in just a few moments
It seems a huge tree even now
Though the ravages of time have destroyed all its roots
It felt always as if the awaited one will come to me
But the echo of the footsteps turned away as it got near me
I and the courage to protest - never - never
My veins suddenly began to shout
When I broke all the limits spontaneously
Then I realized this is exactly what she wanted
I went around hiding my pain from the world
But my tossing and turning left its mark on the bed
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
English translation of ghazal (jab bhi jazbon ke liye) by Muslim Saleem by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
English translation of ghazal (jab bhi jazbon ke liye) by Muslim Saleem
by Dr. Shahzad RizviWhen expressing emotions words turned into daggers
The delicate hands were transformed into murder weapons
When the high and mighty were brought down by the raging storm of time
The lowly ones rose to the occasion and took their placeSlowly but assuredly we learned the art of living
While living among Romans we turned into Romans
Since we plunged into the ocean of struggles of life
we faced such challenges that we became expert swimmers
Leaving poverty and starvation behind when we launched ourselves
our determination became steely like Alexander's to conquer the world
From afar everything was titillating and tempting and beautiful
And when we touched them up close they turned into meaningless nothings
Muslim - who happened to pass through the universe of my imagination
That many a past moments of my memory became eternally fragrant
Monday, April 18, 2011
RAGE - a short story by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
RAGE - a short story byDr. Shahzad Rizvi
The actor pulled out the number nine club from the golf bag that he always kept on the passenger seat next to him, and swung it at the young man who had cut him off. With his car’s top down, the young man had no protection and the club hit him hard on the head. Blood oozing from his temple, he slumped over the steering wheel, setting his car horn blaring. Traffic stopped and everyone craned his neck to see what had happened. A paparazzo, who had been trailing the actor, jumped out of his car and began clicking photos from different angles. A local station’s news crew quickly materialized and began filming the scene.
The shriek of a siren grew closer and closer. A police car came into view, weaving its way through the crowd that had gathered. The policeman came out, took stock of the situation and shifted the body just enough to stop the horn. It now slumped to the side. He put his fingers on the wrist of the young man and shook his head. A few minutes later, the emergency squad arrived. After a preliminary examination, a medic announced, “He’s dead,” and took the body off to the Alexandria Hospital morgue where a pathologist would give an official report.
“I killed him! I killed him! Arrest me,” the actor shouted. The policeman did not need much coaxing. He read him his rights and took him away, with the paparazzi, the news crew and a mob of thrill-seekers in hot pursuit.
The police’s biggest challenge was not to find the killer, but to track down the next-of-kin of the young man who was cooling in the morgue. What they discovered was that he was 19, enrolled in the School of Foreign Service of Georgetown University and lived with his mother. But where was the mother?
Barbara was visiting Scotland. She had had an exciting day of watching the Edinburgh Festival and an evening at the Tattoo. Now, she had returned to her hotel room and was feeling a little tired and lonely. She and her son had planned this trip for a long time, but at the last minute he had changed his mind. She wondered what he was doing at this time. It must be early evening in the Virginia suburbs. I’ll talk to him a little later after I settle down, she said to herself. She called room service and turned on the TV.
The first item on CNN News was about the film star Bob Nichols killing a young man in a road rage incident. This time, he’s really done it, Barbara thought, sadly. It’s really too bad. Ever since she was a young girl, she’d had a crush on the actor. Her son would often tease her, “What’s this with you and Bob Nichols? You worship him and he doesn’t even know you.” She’d laugh it off.
She was in the middle of putting on her nightgown when an image came on the television. She was stunned. She began to choke and couldn’t breathe. Then she screamed and couldn’t stop. There was an insistent knock on the door and the telephone rang steadily.
At that hour, there wasn’t a single flight from anywhere in Scotland to the United States. She took an overnight train to London and took the first morning flight to the U.S. Seeing her cry and refusing to take any food or drinks, the stewardesses grew concerned and kept coming around to ask if they could do anything. Even the captain came over to ask after her. Through her sobs, she said, “My son has been killed.” There was nothing anyone could do. There was nothing that could be done.
All through the flight, she saw images of her son’s life. He was such a cute, adorable little boy. There had been happy times, and there had been difficult times. It was not easy to be a single parent. And then there was the issue of having him out of wedlock. Even in this day and age, there were some people who had prejudices against it. She couldn’t care less about them, but she couldn’t bear her parents’ subtle and disapproving looks and comments. They did love her son, though.
The plane landed and people began to leave, but she sat in her seat lost in her thoughts. When finally she came out in the terminal, she was startled by a crowd of reporters. The flashing cameras were too much for her tired and sleepless eyes. Right and left, questions were being thrown at her, which she had no desire or energy to answer. When a reporter asked, “Barbara, will you be asking for compensation from Bob Nichols?” she felt like hitting him. She finally found refuge among her parents and friends who had been pushed to the side.
Leaving the airport, her mother said, “Forgive me, my dear, if I ever made you feel bad about having Bobby.”
“We just wanted to know who his father was. Poor child, he needed his father as he was growing up. He had me, of course, but it wasn’t the same,” added her father.
“But now, as they say, it’s water under the dam. It takes a long time to heal from the death of a child. We know; we suffered a lot when your brother died in the car accident. My only hope is that we can find some way to comfort you,” said her mother.
At the morgue, the body was unmistakably that of her son. She couldn’t bear to see it, this battered shell all that was left of her beloved boy. She told the doctor, “His body will, of course, be sent to a medical school. That’s what he wanted. That’s what he used to say, but I couldn’t imagine then that I’d be doing it.” She broke down and was taken away, supported by her parents.
The trial of Bob Nichols was a media circus. Hundreds of reporters and television crews descended on the courthouse in Alexandria, across the river from Washington. Nichols’ movie studio put together a strong defense team—even though the actor strongly objected. It lined up many Hollywood legends to come down to testify. The studio didn’t want to take any chances. As it was, it was losing a million dollars a day, with shooting on his new movie halted.
The date came and the trial of the year began. During the court proceedings, Bob Nichols stole the prosecution’s thunder by doing their work for them. As the defense team helplessly watched and the movie executives seethed, the actor told a hushed court that he was guilty as charged. As if that was not enough, he proceeded to smash his own character by cataloging the anguish that his anger had caused to other people. This time it had gone too far, extinguishing a promising young life. Something had to be done, and done soon, to stop it. The jurors listened intently to the self-directed tirade and went into their sequestered deliberations in great bafflement.
The media passed its own verdict: Guilty of first degree murder. There was premeditation and intent. There was no element of accident in the act. There was a pattern. And by the admission of the accused himself, the deed had been done by him, and by none other than him. He was even warning the judge and jury that if he were not stopped, he might do it again. For hours, the reporters churned the case in their brains and all came to the same conclusion.
The jury, on the other hand, had a tough time reaching a verdict. First of all, each juror had seen Nichols on the screen at some time or other—and the kind, gentle characters he portrayed had left an indelible impression. Second, his self-condemnation in the courtroom, his remorse, and the repentance he felt, had won them over. He needed help more than punishment, they thought. Locking him up for a long time would take him away from the wonderful work he was doing in films. Besides, he was involved in so many causes—most of them benefiting children. Furthermore, he’d done years of patriotic service, raising the morale of American troops by entertaining them in war zones.
The verdict finally came down as second-degree murder. Nichols was sentenced to ten years of imprisonment, five of them suspended. He was to spend six months in a psychiatric hospital under intensive supervision. In passing sentence, the judge lectured him to control the rages which had dogged him all his life, marring a brilliant career. If the loss of this young life would not open his eyes, then she didn’t know what would.
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Barbara was finally coming out of a deep depression. After agonizing through several sleepless nights, she decided to visit Bob Nichols at the Mental Health Institute. Several times, she thought of changing her mind, but she stuck with her decision.
Nichols thought she’d be yet another fan coming to see him, but when they came face to face, neither spoke for a moment. Then Nichols said, “It’s been a long time.”
“Yes, Bob, a very long time.”
“You’ve changed.”
“So have you.”
“Oh, Lord. For the better, I hope. I feel I’m a different man after that horrible experience.”
“I read the statement you gave in court.”
“When I woke up in the morning, after that night we’d spent together, you were gone. You left behind no name, no phone number, nothing. I looked for you everywhere, but I couldn’t find you. In the end, I assumed that you must be a married woman and didn’t want to be found.”
“Being a movie star, I was sure you wouldn’t care about me. Girls like me must throw themselves at you all the time.”
“Oh, no. In fact, all these years, I’ve thought of you and wondered about you.”
“So you remember how we met?”
“Like it happened yesterday. You cut me off on the road and in a rage I came at you with my golf club. But you didn’t realize your peril. You were shrieking with joy and said ‘Bob Nichols! I’ve had a crush on you since you were a child star and I was a little girl,’ and you stuck a pen and paper in front of me and asked for my autograph. I forgot all about my anger and found myself giving you the autograph and asking you out.”
“But my son—I mean, our son—was not so lucky.”
“What are you saying?”
She broke down and couldn’t answer him. He grabbed hold of her shoulders and shook them. “Answer me! You said, ‘Our son.’ Did I have a son? Answer me.”
“Yes, yes, you did…we did…from the night we spent together. The young man you killed—that was our son.”
“Oh my God, oh my God, this is not happening. Why didn’t you tell me? You knew how to find me. It’s not fair. It’s not fair!”
“Because you’re movie royalty. I couldn’t see my poor boy fitting in with your Hollywood life.”
“You owed it to me to tell me that you were carrying my child!”
“I thought you’d think that I was trying to trap you. Don’t some women try to trap the rich and famous that way?”
“You couldn’t be more wrong. I always wanted to get married and have a family. But no woman wanted me because of my temper. Most Hollywood people go through multiple marriages. I’m one of the few actors who’s never married. You were wrong about me…you were dead wrong. I fell in love with you that night. I wanted you…God knows, I wanted to marry you.”
“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. I had no idea.” Tears were rolling down their cheeks.
“Our son cannot come back, but we can make a life together. Wherever he is, he would like us to do that. He would like his parents to come together. For his sake, for our sakes…would you have me? Would you marry me? Would you give me a second chance?”
“Everyone deserves a second chance. Why should we be an exception?”
Nashtar Khairabadi – ghazal – jaan sambhali na gayee
غزل
نشتر خیرابادی
جِس کے دِل پر یہ لگی جان سنبھالی نہ گئی
چشِم جاناں کبھی گولی تِری خالی نہ گئی
نام دُنیا میں مُحبّت کا نِکا لا میں نے
آپ سے ایک تمنّا بھی نِکالی نہ گئی
خونِ نا حق کا اثر اِس سے سِوا کیا ہوگا
قتل کرکے بھی تِری آنکھ کی لالی نہ گئی
بِجلیاں سُوے قفس آیئں گیئں سو سو بار
بننے کو شاخِ قفس پھو لوں کی ڈالی نہ گئی
رات دِن زُلفِ پر یشاں کا تصوّر ہے تجھے
ہائے نشتر تِری آ شفتہ خیالی نہ گئی
Sunday, April 17, 2011
SHE AND I, a poem by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
SHE AND I, a poem by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
A poem by Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
Your world and mine
Are worlds apart.
Day in and day out,
We affirm our differences,
Yet, we go on together.
What is the glue that binds us together?
What is it that makes us care for each other?
What is the rhythm, that through all the mutual din,
Keeps us syncopated?
Perhaps the opposites in us, on the fulcrum of life, balance us— My hope for your despair,
My optimism for your pessimism,
My joy for your sorrow.
Thus, in a precarious balance,
In the shadow of love,
Buffeted by our inner storms,
Our lives go on.
Fire, a poem by Dr Syeda Imrana Nashtar Khairabadi
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Dr Shahzad A. Rizvi's translates Muslim Saleem's ghazal "Ham phool gulsitaan mein..."
A poem by renowned litterateur Mr. Muslim Saleem
English translation by: Dr. Shahzad Rizvi
Our good fortune brings us joys while others suffer
Eyes are averted when they happen to fall on him
Our voices do not echo and they seem to get lost forever
As if the rocks on which they fall may have drunk them to quench their thirst
Oh God, are you collecting my prayers day after after day
So you can bestow your blessings on the Day of Judgment
Collective half dead conscience is being kept alive on artificial respirator
It seems society is replete with cadavers in motion
East and West are no longer different from each other
The entire planet is contaminated now
Friday, April 15, 2011
SHORT STORY “BREAKUP” BY Dr. SHAZAD A RIZVI
Dr. Shahzad A Rizvi is a great writer based in Washington. He has been penning novels and short stories with great aplomb and verve and has attained much popularity. Here is one of pieces of his fine works – a short story titled as “Breakup”
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Mary stopped coming home directly from work, as she had always done. As an explanation, she said, “I’ve met a couple. I stopped by their house. They live on the way home.” It didn’t sound very satisfactory, but I didn’t probe.
Mary and I had been married for 26 years and had reached a level of co-existence. She was a little older than me and when we first met, I was struck by how much she knew. Since childhood, I’d loved knowledge and learning, and I thought I could learn from her. But, over the years, not only had I bridged our knowledge gap, I’d surpassed it.
The glue which had initially bound us together was gone. But it didn’t matter. We had children together; they had grown up and gone, and were doing fine. We understood each other, or so I thought, and found comfort in the predictability of our marriage, even if there was little mutuality and less passion.
Mary’s visits to this “couple” began to extend now to weekends and holidays. She was no longer around to do even the few things we’d done together lately. So I began to seek company elsewhere, and accept invitations to parties, something I’d always disliked. But these expanded social horizons opened up sides of me I hadn’t known existed. I discovered that I could talk to lots of people and keep them hanging on my words.
At one of these parties, a woman walked up to me and introduced herself as Sandy. We began to talk and couldn’t stop. After many years, her marriage was falling apart, she told me. She’d put up with her husband’s shenanigans for years, but now things had reached a critical mass. They were separating and she was looking for a new beginning. I told her about my own marriage and my wife’s absences. Sandy found the arrangement very strange.
We became friends, and began to see each other regularly, mostly during the lunch hours. She liked me more than she’d ever liked anybody before, she told me, but she saw no romantic future for us. She had no interest in jumping into a relationship with a married man. She really wanted to get it right the second time.
Sightings of Mary with a young man began to be reported. Everybody was very confused, including our children—especially our children. Was she having a mid-life crisis, they wondered?
Sandy’s divorce finally came through when we’d been friends for a year. Mary’s never being home had given us a chance to spend lots of time together. We decided to celebrate her divorce by going to the cabin that Mary and I had had built many years before. It was only an hour’s drive outside Washington D.C., in the Virginia countryside.
It was a pleasant drive, with sunshine falling on our heads and breezes caressing our cheeks. As we approached the cabin, we were startled by the sight of Mary and the young man in the distance. They had just come out of the car and were locked in an embrace. This was the first time I’d ever laid eyes on this young man. He was tall and good-looking. As I watched my wife in an intimate moment with this stranger, a few moments seemed like an eternity. They disappeared into the cabin. I sat staring at the closed door behind which Mary and I had spent so many weekends while the kids were growing up.
Sandy touched my shoulder and jolted me out of my reverie. “Let’s get out of here,” she said. We drove in silence back toward Washington. She was driving now and took us to her house. When we emerged from the car, Sandy wrapped her arms around me and kissed my lips, as she had never done before. I had the feeling that something fundamental had changed between us.
As shocked as I’d been by what I’d seen Mary do, I also felt liberated. I no longer felt bound to her. If Mary was having an affair, our marriage was over. Now what was to stop Sandy and me from starting a relationship? We went into her house together. We stayed up all night, sharing things about our lives that we’d never shared before. As the first rays of sun entered the bedroom, Sandy and I vowed to spend our future together.
Later in the day, Mary called me at the office and said that she had been trying to reach me and asked where I had been. “With friends,” I responded curtly. She wanted to tell me something very important, she said, and hung up.
When I arrived home that night, Mary was there, which was a first in a very long time. She looked disheveled, unkempt and anxious. She had some pictures arrayed on the dining table. The first picture I recognized immediately as that of the young man. I looked at the photos; I’d never seen any of them before. The last was a picture of an infant lying in a crib.
“This is my baby…my child that I gave away,” she said, and began to cry. I tried to comfort her, but I wasn’t sure what I was comforting her for.
Through her sobs, she told me her story: “When I was a teenager and studying at Michigan State, I got pregnant from my boyfriend. He turned out to be a big disappointment, but I decided to go on with the pregnancy and have the child. But there was no way I could keep the baby. First of all, I had no means to do it. Second, there was a lot of stigma about having a child out of wedlock in those days. So I gave him up, but it broke my heart. A schoolteacher adopted him and raised him like her own child.
“After I married you, I thought about him constantly but couldn’t bring myself to tell you about it. Then you joined the State Department and every two years, we were posted at a different embassy overseas. Meanwhile, my baby grew into a man. When his adopted mother died, he began to search for his biological mother. But it wasn’t easy, because it had been arranged as a closed adoption. His attempts were also complicated because we moved so often.
“After more than two decades abroad, we were posted here in Washington. One day, I got a letter forwarded by the university alumni association. When I opened it, there was a letter from my son, describing his life with his other mother, his search for me, and finally his present life. He wrote that he hoped that the letter would reach me, since all he knew was my maiden name and that I’d studied at Michigan State. He said that he would love to see me, if I were willing.
“He, of course, included his address, and when I read it I couldn’t believe it. He lived about a mile away, on the very same street as we do. It was simply incredible. I couldn’t believe my luck. I immediately called him and went over to see him. Our meeting was charged with emotion. We talked for hours. He’s married and has an adopted child. His wife has been very understanding and has given us lots of room. Now you know about the young man I’ve been seeing. I’m sorry I took such a long time to tell you.”
“I’m happy that you’ve found your long-lost son,” I told her. “I wish I had known about him from the beginning. That would have spared me lots of confusion and heartache. Every year I saw you go into a deep depression on the 4th of March, which I now understand must have coincided with his birth and your giving him up. And I would have been able to make sense of your constant absences in this past year. I would have understood your deep need to be with your son. But now, I’m sorry to say, it’s too late. My life has moved on. I’ve begun a life with another.”